I was a mentor for 3 years now newly turned main director of MA University. I stepped into this position to assist the former Director when she needed some time to reconnect with Jesus. I had no idea what I was saying yes to and now find myself in this role of director. Honestly, I felt inadequate, I still do at times not because of training but because the reality of hearing where my girls were at was just too much. I quickly knew I didn’t have anything to offer them. All I can do was cry out to Jesus in the midst of laughter, disagreements and misunderstandings. All I knew to do was cry out to Jesus because their life circumstances were beyond me. I can’t save them. I am inadequate to save them. All I can do is be attentive to them, give them my time when they ask for it, be a listening ear when no one else will and because of that I have heard more tears this year than I ever have since joining Mama Africana.
Being a director comes with a lot more weight than expected and I am learning in a small way what God bares daily and can only imagine what Jesus bore on the cross. I could run, I could give up or quit but moments like December 12th, 2014 mark an indelible impression that I will remember for the rest of my life. It was our last E-Bridge for the year; my heart broke and sank because the reality of the brokenness that my girls face was real. This was supposed to be a joyous occasion preparing for the celebration of the birth of Jesus and enjoying family, friends, and the expectation of Christmas day yet only half of the girls made it that night. For various, unexpected reasons many could not make it and in learning the truth of why all I could do was cry for them. I silently wept and asked Jesus to help. Help them, help their families, help their circumstances. I saw my inadequacy very clearly but I understood Jesus’s adequacy and knew that He is what they need. See I am still here and will continue to be here, not because I can save them but in order to simply let our girls know that someone cares and loves them and wants a relationship with them. I am here to point them to Jesus and see Him heal them and grow them to be the Amazing Black Women that He has created them to be.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. Proverbs 3:5-6